A year ago I embarked on my Color of Woman Intentional Creativity teacher training. It helped me through my first year as a widow, pouring myself into writings, the canvas, and holding space with my COW sisters. In the middle or I should say toward the end of the training I moved. The move consumed all my energy and time. When I was finally in my new home I lost my focus and did not graduate in November. I was so close, only a few more assignments left but I was tired emotionally, physically, mentally and spiritually. I left my home where I spent my entire married life, the home my husband took his last breath in, and moved to a completely new location. I took an extension, not truly knowing if I would complete my training, and I am so thankful I did!!!
Believe in yourself, your gifts, your purpose. My initiate book is being printed, I have finished the last three writing assignments. The moon is a waxing gibbous moon! Wow! Your secret medicine is budding, fruit is forming, take time to notice adjust and refine!!!
Below is an excerpt from today’s Daily OM that arrived in my mailbox. This really hit HOME. In the last week I’ve been told by several people that I am an inspiration, my creations have energy. For over a year now and especially these past couple of weeks I’ve been asking and asking and asking what is my purpose and BOOM people have been telling me and I haven’t been HEARING it. Inspiration, my creations have energy, they feel it, they see it. And the other morning I woke up with “this little light of mine, I’m going to let it shine” playing over and over and over again in my head!! I finally HEARD the ANSWER!
I am a deep SOUL HE-ARTIST. My gift is shining the light.
“As we live our lives in this world, we share our energy and our spirit with the people around us in numerous ways. Our influence touches their lives and, through them, touches the lives of many more people. When we strive to live our lives to the fullest and to become our true selves, we are doing something big on an inner level, and that is more than enough to make sense of our being here on this planet at this time. There is no need to hold ourselves to an old idea in the back of our minds that we need to make headlines or single-handedly save the world in order to validate our existence.”
Today was my soul day, preparing for my power year 2019, a personal 4 year for me. I started the day off with meditation, prayers, setting my intention for the day. I spent four wonderful hours with @lainielovedalby in sacred sisterhood with other sisters. We pulled divination cards, danced, meditated, made expressive art and focused on how we want to feel in the coming year. I will be continuing my soul day with Lotus and the Lily doing some soul writing and finishing up with creating my Mandala on January 1st.
My spirit animals live in a cavern with an emerald river running through it. There are hanging vines throughout the cavern. There is a white leopard, an owl, a white horse, an eagle, a crow, a frog and others I do not know who they are yet. Today I asked who is my spirit animal that has been with me since birth. A black bird flew up to me and nuzzled my neck. I asked are you a crow or a raven. A raven (I think he might have been put out that I did not know). I asked him why he is my spirit animal from birth. He told me he was chosen to be with me to protect me, teach me to speak my voice and to spread my wings which had been clipped at a very young age but recently I got them back. What is weird, well nothing is weird anymore, back in 2017 I started writing my story through a class with Robin Laws. The main character is Raven (me) and my animal spirit is a crow. Crow calls to awaken you to your true soul purpose . . . to remind you to follow your purpose. I need to start writing again. #sisterhive#spiritanimal