What is Your Gift

Below is an excerpt from today’s Daily OM that arrived in my mailbox. This really hit HOME. In the last week I’ve been told by several people that I am an inspiration, my creations have energy. For over a year now and especially these past couple of weeks I’ve been asking and asking and asking what is my purpose and BOOM people have been telling me and I haven’t been HEARING it. Inspiration, my creations have energy, they feel it, they see it. And the other morning I woke up with “this little light of mine, I’m going to let it shine” playing over and over and over again in my head!! I finally HEARD the ANSWER!

I am a deep SOUL HE-ARTIST. My gift is shining the light.

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“As we live our lives in this world, we share our energy and our spirit with the people around us in numerous ways. Our influence touches their lives and, through them, touches the lives of many more people. When we strive to live our lives to the fullest and to become our true selves, we are doing something big on an inner level, and that is more than enough to make sense of our being here on this planet at this time. There is no need to hold ourselves to an old idea in the back of our minds that we need to make headlines or single-handedly save the world in order to validate our existence.”

My Voice

I am hoping to share my voice with you, to be who I am meant to be.

It has been 31 days since my sweet husband lost his 14 month battle with cancer.  We kept it quiet as much as possible.  It’s what he wanted.  He wanted people to remember him how he was when he was healthy, not how he was at the end.  At first I was angry with everyone, God and even Richard for getting sick.  I cried, what about me, what about my life.  How selfish am I?  For better or worse, in sickness and in health, ’til death do us part.

Thus began my spiritual journey.  I gave it up to God, the Divine, put it in his hands.  One night I had a powerful vision, I won’t call it a dream, as it was not a dream.  My DOD (dear ole dad) came to me and took me on a walk, down a narrow path which I was afraid to take.  I told him, no, there is nothing ahead, just darkness, an abyss.  My dad told me to hold his hand and to have faith.  As we walked, the path became a little wider, it was still very wobbly, the path was made of rocks, some large, some small, I had to be careful with my footing.  We continued on for what seemed like forever.  My dad then told me to look up as I had been looking down watching my footing, not wanting to look to the side as there was nothing by darkness.  NO!  I’m afraid.  Look, Marshy, look up.  I did. I saw a bright white light, I felt hope.  My heart was filled with such joy.  The darkness was gone.  My dad said to me, you are going to be fine.

My journey of healing myself and caring for Richard began, unconditionally, with love and support until the very end.  I prayed for a peaceful release.  He fell asleep in his recliner watching football.

Once again I am reaching out and giving it up to God, the Divine, to guide me on my new chapter in my life.  Life has changed for me, my address will change, I will change.

When Richard was first diagnosed he told me, I need you to be STRONG.  This is my mantra for the coming year, my 2nd renaissance is beginning, BE STRONG.

Timing is everything.  Janet Conner’s 30-day Soul Program began this month.  I was blessed to be one of the scholarship recipients.  The program is called The Lotus and the Lily “access the Wisdom of Buddha and Jesus to Nourish Your Beautiful, Abundant Life”.

I met Janet in an online retreat.  She is infectious.  This is my second course with her.  If you are wanting more in your life, to find your purpose, reconnect to your inner self, walk with me on my journey with The Lotus and the Lily.  I’d love to walk with you on yours.

We started week one.  Week two starts Monday.  There is still time to join in!

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Color of Women

Wow, Intentional Creativity, nothing I would have thought I would be drawn too, but for over a year now I have been reconnecting to my inner self, searching for my path.  I know creativity is fundamental but being an artist and selling, although enticing, just wasn’t it.

When I first found Shiloh Sophia I thought to myself, nah, this isn’t me, but I NEVER say NEVER!  I found myself drawn to creating from within, what I feel.  Then healing entered the equation.  Art does heal!

So I made a huge decision and applied for Color of Women and was accepted!!!  My journey begins in 2019!

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I also signed up for Fonda Haight Clark’s Down Deep class.  I wanted to take it last year but couldn’t.  Here are a couple of journal pages I have done so far.

This horse started off with just a random “throw down” of paint and when I added the Celtic symbol for grief and mourning the horse appeared.

I am not surprised that in each of these pages the horse, the owl and I’m not sure if it’s a hawk or a crow appeared as these are all my spirit animals.

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In conjunction with Intentional Creativity I am learning about energy healing which I will incorporate with my COW journey.  I will share more about that in another post.

Tree of Life

Tea with the Midnight Muse by Shiloh Sophia is a wonderful book, invocations and inquiries for awakening!

In one of her chapters she asks question(s) as to what is your tree of life, how does it feel, etc. . . As I read her book at night I don’t often write down what I think but I am going to have to do it as a practice.  This is my answer to her question.

MY TREE OF LIFE is an oak tree. It feels rough, weathered, but strong and loving, supportive. My tree is tall and broad with many branches reaching out into the universe. The leaves are emerald green, shaped like a diamond. It offers shade and protection from predators for many animals, such as birds, squirrels and turkeys. Her roots reach out like tentacles, gnarly with age and wisdom, grounding deep into mother earth.

 

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